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This is so stupid but I can’t stop crying. I have been working out for an hour every day, at the most brutual workout I could ever imagine this week. I wake up so sore I have trouble getting around. I have been eating less than 1300 calories too. And I absolutely have not lost any weight in almost 2 weeks. Not even part of a pound.

I am doing exactly what I am supposed to, and my body is stubbornly refusing to lose any more weight. I feel like there is absolutely nothing I can do anymore. This is insane.

If I keep this up I’ll lose pounds in water weight, because I can’t stop bawling. I have worked so hard and now..

Every weigh in I have been adjusting and squinting, leaning and squirming to read the number on my scale. All the while I know that it is half accurate and half wishful thinking. Well, no more! I invested in a digital scale - no fuss at all.  (It was less than twenty bucks on sale anyway.) It even has a water and body fat percentage.

The difference between the two seem to be 0.8 on the heavier side - but at least I know finally. My Tae Bo workouts should be increasing lean muscle mass, something that is reflected in the body fat index. Yippeee. I love my scale.

I recently discovered that the first ten pounds don’t come off the same way as the last ten pounds. It takes more work! I was working on diet alone and that worked fine, but things are started to slow down. I decided to step on the gas and work my little bum off with exercise this week. I will totally reach my mini goal by the end of the week! Awesome!

Okay, now on to my discovery! A friend of mine at work told me about the weight loss benefits her mom experienced by drinking green tea. Now I am a tea junkie - so it’s super easy for me to insert 3-4 cups of it into my day. Just don’t try drinking it by itself, it needs a little lemongrass in the mix! You can buy this stuff anyway, including Tim Hortons.

I did a little research online, and it seems that Green Tea enables you to burn about 70 extra calories a day, no extra work required. Now with a balanced diet and exercise, that can really add up. It boosts your metabolism, plus it has a ton of anti-oxidant benefits. I love this stuff!

Weight loss is important, but it isn’t nearly as important as some things in life. Whenever I lose perspective, I think about that. This is a personal challenge that is very manageable.

Resisting temptation is easy when you consider what challenges other people are facing. A friend of mine has recently gone through an operation where part of her lung was removed, because it was cancerous. She has lost so much weight, she is only 90 pounds. Her weight is the last thing on her mind.

On the other end, a co-worker recently gained 20 pounds after her surgery. She is on medication that causes her to rapidly gain weight, and also to retain water. She feels awful about herself, but it isn’t her main concern. She is more worried about the tumor that was removed.

Our health is so important. Being a healthy body weight can help prevent terrible illness, or else help us beat it if we are affected. Being fit and active, eating healthy, these are small things that we owe ourselves in life. It allows us to live more freely, and gives us a better capacity to help other people in turn.

With all of the suffering out there, a weight loss challenge is do-able. It is something we can achieve, keeping all of the harder accomplishments of other people in mind.

Why not put goals together, and walk for a Cure? Run at a fundraiser? Life is to precious to damage ourselves in pursuit of physical perfection, it is far better to keep our health as a first priority.

My prayers go out to all of us affected by illness and who are suffering, especially my Tante Florance.

Support at home is such a big deal! My boyfriend has been amazing through this whole process. All of a sudden he has been supremely affectionate, and can’t stop touching me (Rated G people, don’t get excited!). I’ve been wearing the cutest little dresses and getting all sorts of ‘love you’ attention. He is impressed with me, and I’m impressed with me too.
You learn alot about food when you change your lifestyle, but you also learn alot about yourself. Food was always a way for me to cope with stressful situations. Now I’ve been trying to calm myself in other ways. I know that overeating when I’m stressed will make me even MORE stressed! How counter productive is that?

I bought myself a little PJ set from Walmart yesterday. Their sizes are big, but I’ve never fit into a Small there, and guess what size my little set was? Small. Awesome!

I used to look at girls who were smaller than me and think, Gosh how tiny is she? I would resent them and their salad-eating, high metabolizing selves. Now I can just look at people and see them. I don’t have to zoom in their weight because I feel crappy about my own. I can feel good about other people, I can point out how good someone looks in a piece of clothing. I can say - She was really pretty, and not feel insecure about myself. I feel so much more free.

More and more I think about the health benefits of weighing less. You’re reducing the stress on your body by getting rid of that extra fat. It has helped my allergies, and snoring. I eat foods that my body needs instead of just foods that I want. Weighing less makes me look better, feel better, and just changes a person.

I am going to weigh in again in about a week. I hope to be somewhere at 145-146 at that time. I know I can do it!

This has all started to become routine (in a good way). I am automatically reading labels, picking healthier choices on menus and looking for smaller portion sizes.

I feel like I can start to focus on my life again, while weight loss takes a comfortable back seat. I am still losing, I am still working hard, but I don’t have to think on it so much. You know? When I feel hungry between meals I just grab a big cup of tea with skim milk and a little splenda. When I need a little pick me up, I have low calorie treats on hand.

I have to admit that I have eaten burgers and that I have had (half) a brownie eruption, but I also put myself back on track. Even my boyfriend has been helping me out. He is reading labels, and keeping temptations out of the house for me. Lately he can’t seem to keep his hands to himself!

I went shopping for work clothes yesterday, and found the cutest pair of pants. (I wasn’t going to go until I reached my goal, but I haven’t anything fit to wear to work.)

Knowing how many calories there are in foods makes me think twice. It’s not that I absolutely cannot have something, it’s just that actions have consequences. I need to understand that a bowl of poutine does nothing good for my body, or my emotional well being. A big old salad makes me feel a whole lot better.

I have been finding other ways to indulge myself. Like buying lotions and lip gloss, pampering myself with pedicures and manicures and developing a healthy interest in high heels!

I am so looking forward to my next weigh in. I can just tell that I have been doing awesome, and have lost another couple of pounds. This is all worth it. When you doubt it, remember that. You’re becoming a stronger, more disciplined, healthy person.

I’m doing a happy dance this morning. I have been ‘cheating’ on my diet plan - and still lost another three pounds. I just tried to kick up the exercise when that happens. Awesome.  I feel wonderful. I couldn’t figure out why no one has noticed that I lost weight. Finally I realized it was because I was wearing big, bulky clothes - my old clothes. I bought a new shirt in a size MEDIUM. I wear a big bust size, so it is crazy hard to wear anything but a large, and I did it.

I am only 2 pounds away from my mini-goal - crazy.

I have tried to lose weight so many times. It is incredible to finally break through and do it. Calorie counting is awesome. I love it to pieces. I feel so in control of my weight, and my life.

I went through some stages where I ate junk food - and wasted all of my calories. It left me hungry and unhappy and I quickly learned to fill up on healthier foods.

I bought some groceries yesterday: mixed veggies, apples, nectarines, and this cool new yogurt. It only has 40 calories per serving. I also buy all of these cool little 100 calorie treats. MmmmMmmmm. I also developed a fetish for diet rootbeer, but I only drink it once every couple weeks. It’s hard to find it near the house.

Oh! And I also found some belgian chocolate tea. It has little to no calories, but it tastes like yumminess!

Keep up all of the hard work people!

The Bear did climb over the mountain, to see what he could see. And at the top of the mountain, the only zen he found was the zen he had brought with him?

It’s morning, the time just before I wake the puppies, right after I’ve finished my first cup of herbal tea. This week has been a challenge - but how wonderful it is to see the progress. I am notorious for craving hamburgers and chocolates this time of month, and I did not altogether resist. I did, however, makes oodles of progress from my usual late night binge eating. And, can you believe it, I am now at 150? I can’t believe that I am soon going to weigh 140 something.

I can notice a difference in my clothes, in the roundness of my notoriously round face, and in the way my boyfriend has been looking at me! I even tried on a medium at Suzy Shier yesterday - but it was stretchy, so lets not get ahead of ourselves!

I started a gratitude journal to accompany my food log. Now that I’m monitering my intake, I also take the time to jot down some things I’m grateful for. Just anything really. The sunshine, the rain, the heat or the cool wind. It makes you feel wonderful to appreciate life in that way.

More and more I think about how I am going to Maintain my weight. That is a very big deal for me. I want to continue to weigh myself, continue to exercise and pay attention to portions. There is absolutely NO point to make changes and accomplish your goals, if they are only a temporary thing. At this point, I don’t want to go back to french fries. I don’t want to eat greasy foods. I enjoy my portioned controlled snacks.

Weight loss isn’t just about the weight. There’s a whole lot of emotional stuff going on there too. For me, I am just starting to sort through it all. It feels wonderful!

I can’t help but wonder if I will recognize myself as thin when I get there.

Sometimes I think I don’t really know how big I am. You know what I mean? I feel a bit like my body image is distorted. When I see a women on the street, I always think that I am bigger than she is. My boyfriend says that I’m crazy, and that I’m smaller most of the time. Comparing myself to other people has got to be unhealthy.. but I work with a wonderful women who I think is the perfect size. She isn’t super tiny, she just looks like a healthy woman. I just want to see myself like that.

I am losing weight on my body, but I wonder if it is still sticking in my head - you know? I wonder whats the best way to get real about what size you are? I wonder if I can lose enough weight to see myself as thin and healthy… Maybe I should take some pictures.

I held my breath and weighed in today. Damage control was successful! I lost another pound and a half since the last weigh in. I’ve been filling up on fruits and veggies - so much more satisfying than a cookie munch out! Though I never thought I’d hear myself say that. I visited the grocery store yesterday, and saw tiny packs of 100 calorie foods. I skipped the tiny bags of chips and chocolates and bought some fruit and nut packets to bring to work. Yummy.

Did I mention that I’m working in a designer clothing store? Everyone there is super competitive about being a size two. That job is coming to an end, thank goodness. I am a size 11 right now, and I don’t care what size I am when I hit 140. I just want to feel healthy and fit.

You guys rock for reading my stuff and sending me notes of encouragement! I’m totally going to check out some healthier recipes.

Yesterday was technically a ‘good’ day, but mostly it was horrible! I decided to make cookies to bring into work. After all, when calorie counting you can incorporate almost anything, as long as you watch the bottom line. Well, I watched the bottom line shrink away to nothing. Most of my calorie budget was spent on cookies! Needless to say I got rid of the rest.

I love to bake, but I need to put that on hold until I’ve reached my target weight. I learned a valuable lesson about being left in the house with warm, gooey chocolate chip cookies. Don’t do it! In the future, I will buy a single portion of a reasonable treat.
I was stunned by all the messages I found in my blog! How awesome is that! It makes me want to pull out my workout dvd and get to it! I can’t believe that I’m only four pounds away from 150.  I’m weighing in this Friday, I really hope to be down to 153. My boyfriend has been helping me stay on track, bless him. He was against the cookie idea, better listen to the voice of reason next time!